Left to Lose, by Echo Artifact

Left to Lose

by Echo Artifact

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1.	Forgotten Fools 03:45	lyrics	buy track
When we were waking from our dreams The world had changed or though it seems Whenever asked we stayed the story true Never not a world to see, we set our course: return to dreams And bare the bear that bare repeating soon I’m leaving out a lot of things We never should’ve stayed asleep When listening is key to keeping cool All you want is interesting When “interesting” is blisteringly Ever better than forgotten fools Let me start again to say - Aware there should be better ways Of coping with reality anew - “Finding new epiphanies of recent found discrepancies Will only get you further from the truth.” I’m leaving out a lot of things We never should’ve stayed asleep When misery is key to keeping cruel And all you want is interesting But “interesting” is blisteringly Ever better than forgotten fools Why, I think I’ll try to tell you why I never tried Why the body left the soul for somewhere else to die Something felt real Something’s wrong here To finish up convincingly I feel I mustn’t say A litany of reasons why I’m lost along the way A fault, a fear, at least ten beers have kept my soul a-sway for years But at least I’ve kept all her regrets at bay I’m leaving out a lot of things We never should’ve strayed from sheep When victory is key to keeping true But what you want is interesting When “interesting” is blisteringly Ever better than forgotten fools We’re never better than forgotten fools Let’s clean this up before the blood begins to pool echoartifact.com/lefttolose Recorded at Traxler Studios (2019/2020)
2.	Ask Me 04:17	lyrics	buy track
Not that long ago We stood face to face Indecision shows The ways that we have changed Born again to show That we’ve evolved away Bleeding head to toe But we keep secrets safe One last round to go And then we’re far away No one has to know ‘Cuz we keep secrets safe Like nothing matters By now I know, knocked down, I’m not getting up Ready to bleed for this but I’m too deep cut The longer I’m down the more I sink to oblivion You have no idea what this will become No one left to know No one left to say Dig deep down below To keep this secret safe Buried here alone With all of our mistakes Never really known That we were making graves All that’s left to show Is violently erased Fear of letting go Will keep me in this place ...keep me in my place (I’m watching all my dreams turn circles) (Waiting for a great new purpose) Like something matters By now I know, knocked down, I’m not getting up Ready to bleed through this but I’m too deep cut The longer I’m down the more I sink to oblivion You have no idea what this has become Finally alone Desperate and decayed Breaking sticks and bones To keep this story straight (Weigh me down I know why You won’t ask me now I know why You can’t weigh me down Ask me why) By now I’m done, knocked out, I’m never getting up Already bleeding out and I’ve had enough The longer I’m down the more I sink to oblivion You have no idea but this has begun Finding out that hope Is frequently delayed Never letting go ‘Cuz we keep secrets safe What’s your price for keeping secrets? echoartifact.com/lefttolose Recorded at Traxler Studios (2019)
3.	Prelude 04:47	lyrics	buy track
I don’t I don’t think you mean it Here now another disagreement Play our cards It means more to me when you’re gone What at this point could go wrong? Where the heart flows silt will follow A pill too big for us to swallow What could I do to make this worse? Love, being a chemical randomly dispersed, Is never that we’ve found our place But merely a familiar face; A bluebird transfixed in space Come down Come down (I won’t) Come down (I don’t) Play our hearts (I don’t think you mean it.) Play our cards echoartifact.com/lefttolose Recorded at Traxler Studios (2019)
4.	Bluebird 02:50	lyrics	buy track
Blue bird, blue bird are you tired? Bloodied, tin foil and are you fired? Weary, I don't think I've tried Long enough now to be alright I don’t think we should sleep tonight Red bird, red bird do you feel? Lessen my grip is this not real? Quiet reset to feel alright I don’t think we can win this fight All depends where she sleeps tonight Black bird, black bird do you know How afraid is your heart to show? Seal it up stitched away from light Long enough not to feel inside I don’t think this will be alright Blue bird, blue bird won’t you try? She bleeds out while the fire dies Giving up isn’t like letting go Breaking down over radio Where from here baby? I don’t know Blue bird, blue bird are you tired? Bloodied, tin foil and are you fired? Weary I don't think I've tried Overwhelming adrift reminds: Never don’t let your heart decide echoartifact.com/lefttolose Recorded at Traxler Studios (2019)
5.	Untitled Strings 04:04	lyrics	buy track
I’m not me I know it Let’s not see Where this is going You’ve caught me And it’s showing Brace yourself Hell is snowing— She can’t even keep up on the sideline A project for the center of my side-mind We sink another body in the timeline I know you don’t mean too much and- (I am not myself anymore) I’m not me (Find me a new way out) I’ve known it Let’s not see (Blinding this newest doubt) Where this is going You’ve lost me (Find me a new way out) Never showing Brace yourself (Blinding this newest doubt) Hell is snowing— Find me a new way out featuring Katie Zarazua-Dover, vocals echoartifact.com/lefttolose Recorded at Traxler Studios (2019)
6.	I think I am becoming a stranger 05:25	lyrics	buy track
I don’t feel like sleeping anymore Maybe now and then Even being numb can be a chore When you’re stepped on again I don’t get to see you anymore I just live to move myself around around again How I’d like to meet you furthermore How cordial we’d pretend Why I fail to see the point of waking up to you While I find myself in someone else’s shoes Bring me back a season from before A cold and subtle wind Leaving all our reasons at the door We’re keeping score but no one playing ever wins Why I fail to see the point of waking up to you While I find myself in someone else’s shoes I am not myself Who could I be If not someone else I don’t feel like sinking anymore February silences are setting in Pick apart my ego ’til it’s sore But then again, where are all my fucking friends? Why I fail to see the point of waking up to you While I find myself in someone else’s shoes (waiting here for you) I won't find my way out I don't mind these breakdowns (I think about the silence of danger) I won't let you in now I'll find my own way down (I think I am becoming a stranger) echoartifact.com/lefttolose Recorded at Traxler Studios (2019)
7.	Ebb & Low 03:05	lyrics	buy track
“Do you want to be a memory?”, she sang to me If you ever feel inside, are you truly free? Never will the tears flow Never will she let go Forever holding on to thee. I said, “All my memories are broken, baby, and I’m ashamed, you see.” “Do you ever feel alive? Do you strain to breathe?” Another line of questioning that should pertain to me Better to be let go Rather than an echo Waiting just to see if she can see “Do you ever feel alive?” I said, “Only when the pain recedes.” “Do you want to be a memory?”, she sang to me Hope is just a metaphor For when the pain recedes echoartifact.com/lefttolose Recorded at Traxler Studios (2019)
8.	Mind Over Matters 03:51	lyrics	buy track
I don’t know just what you need to see But I know that I can Never be the one to show you I don’t know you This is coming Listen, we are running out of time I don’t know just what you need to be To consume my own inevitable Reaching through you I once knew you This is coming Crystal, hearts are breaking, yours and mine But I don’t mind. No, I won’t mind. Waking up to something never seems Like a separation from our dreams when We’re not sober We’re not over Feeling that electric Doesn’t come without its price Now it seems that we have let this bleed To point that we can not recede If we don’t treat this We won’t beat this This is coming Listen we are running out of time I don’t mind (I don’t see what this might mean to you now) No, I won’t mind (I believe you won’t see me come around) Now I know what this is meant to say Broken hearts are mending day-to-day But do I feel this way? I won’t mind echoartifact.com/lefttolose Recorded at Traxler Studios (2019)
9.	Talking Points 04:36	lyrics	buy track
Do you have a light? I’ll give you anything but a piece of my mind when I Try not to fight Something in the back of me withers and dies We weren’t all born in Hollywood He drives through the night As she looks out the window he recedes to a time when Things are alright While holding out for compromise the meter expires Isn’t this weather vindictively cool? Then she said... All the king’s horses and all the kings men Couldn’t put us back together again She walks away Not knowing what it is she thinks he wants her to say She might not today When starting conversations tends to just be a waste of time You would’ve known me in high school Then he said... All the king’s horses and all the kings men Couldn’t put us back together again What if all the people we’ve become are unhappy? Wouldn’t it be better in the long run (better) if we started detaching? Nothing says I love you like “the end” Do you have a light? I’ll give you anything to look me in the eyes Let’s stay in and fight I don’t want to be around me but I need you to try Nobody told me Everyone ignored me Fairytale or fable, it’s cool All the king’s horses and all the kings men Everyone’s trying but where to begin? When all of us are dying I needed a friend All the king’s horses and all the kings men Couldn’t put us back together again echoartifact.com/lefttolose Recorded at Traxler Studios (2019)
10.	I Don't Have Friends I Have Habits 04:32	lyrics	buy track
I don’t have friends I have habits It’s really not hard to pretend When all of my friends are erratic Imagine how I look to them I don’t think my dreams are elaborate But I don’t think that they’d understand I don’t want to seem melodramatic Here is our list of demands: We want everything necessarily for a change As integrity mounts we’ve aversion to fame I don’t want to elope but I can’t see my name Be it crayon or LED lights all the same I don’t have friends I have habits It’s really quite easy to see If all of my friends automatic Then what does that say about me? Is it really tough? Have you had enough? If you think it’s bad now, the ending is rough (Listen, call me back. I don’t know. It doesn’t matter. I never called you that. If you go Then nothing matters. Let’s restart. Let’s react. Call me back.) featuring Katie Zarazua-Dover, vocals echoartifact.com/lefttolose Recorded at Traxler Studios (2019)

credits

released October 2, 2020

Jude Traxler plays guitar, keys, computers, and sings
Al Cerulo plays uke, melodica, percussion, and electronics
Greg Chudzik plays basses, synths, and software robots

echoartifact.com/lefttolose
All tracks recorded and produced at Traxler Studios, NYC (2019/2020)